The Comforter

He is the Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace! He is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow and He is faithful!

As many of you know I have gone back to work, 1 day a week, to become the counselor at New Life Women's Center...so I have been gone from my baby boy for 3 days now to receive my certification through Therapon. I have been having a hard time all weekend with anxiety and not sleeping well, and have been very emotional. Of course I have been praying for Noah's protection and well-being and for those that have been taking care of him but I have not been using the authority given to me by God and I have not been resting in His peace. Mothers, especially I think, tend to feel guilty not worrying when it comes to their children. It's like we think it's our job to control everything regarding their life and so if we are away, it is our job to freak out and worry! This is not what Gods word says!

Last night, I find out that Noah has 102 fever and hasn't slept all day and he is at my parents house and Nate is out of town as well! So of course I fulfilled my duty as a mother and initially, I freaked out and panicked! Thinking I have to come home and be with my baby and omg what are we going to do and what if it spikes in the night and we have to take him to the ER, and, and, and!!!
(Even though, I've been learning all weekend how the "what-if's' in a persons life will kill them)

So after I call Nate and talk to my director at work and we pray together...it hits me, while I am getting ready for bed, and already thinking how i'm not going to be able to sleep at all tonight, because "how can I sleep when i don't know if my baby is ok??!!!" So the Holy Spirit hits me and says, get on your knees and pray and take authority! So immediately I hit the floor just bawling!
Of course...the ONLY thing I can do for Noah, that will make any difference in his life is to place him COMPLETELY in the hands of his Creator and TRULY trust that He is in control, and He is not surprised by this turn of events and He has already died and taken the stripes for our healing, all we have to do is CLAIM IT!!! BELIEVE IT!!! But so often, we BEG God to PLEASE heal our loved ones and PLEASE give me peace, Amen! NO, NO, NO! Not that God doesn't hear those prayers...he does, but I want to be POWERFUL in my prayers...and the word says that He feels our pain, he catches our tears, but that is not what moves Him...Our faith is what moves him and calls things to reality! Our faith is what brings action!
He said, after He was crucified we would receive, the Counselor and with Him, we would be able to do far greater things than even Jesus did!
What are you doing that is far greater than Jesus did?
I had to ask myself that question and sadly my answer was nothing! Can you imagine how frustrating that must be for God (or maybe just me!) But it hit me last night that I have all authority to claim my son healed and whole and rebuke EVERY strategy that Satan would try to form against me and my family and that my words, in faith, cause it to be done! That's it! So simple; no worry, no fear!

I have never felt such peace and comfort when it sunk in that the Creator of my son, who has known him before me, who somehow loves him more than me, was in his room with him, holding him close, healing his body, giving him sweet sleep when I couldn't be there! What more could you ask for!
When we speak with authority, in Jesus name, Satan's plan vanishes! He can not touch us! And, when we speak with authority, in Jesus name, God moves on our behalf and we can, with confidence, say "Yes and Amen" meaning it is done! We have already won every battle we just have to start acting like it and stop letting Satan have his way with us!

Does that mean we don't ever struggle with fear, and worry and heartache...NO! I did sleep well last night but the few times I woke up, it was my natural first instinct to worry; but I quickly stopped myself, because...believe it or not, we do have control over our thoughts, and I said out loud, "No devil, my son is healed in the name of Jesus and Lord I trust you! I thank you God!" and went back to sleep!
This morning I called and Noah slept all night and his fever has broke and I was not surprised...I really knew that when I called this would be the report because my God is not a man that He should lie. He is faithful to do what He says He will do!
I am a work in progress and the best teacher is experience and hard times and I know that after this experience I understand this concept of surrender and faith much better!
Lord please continue to mold me and shape me into the woman of God that you desire me to be! Thank you for your power and your greatness and yet your intimacy and closeness with ME! I love you Lord and I lift my voice to worship You!
Yes and Amen!